Hoping that day will be a great day for me :)

I have not been taking care of myself despite the concert was next week. Surprisingly my ulcer had cured instead I am getting a sore throat soon, I could feel the pain. oh gosh!

I just don wish to get into study mood, even though I am seriously lagging behind. My clique was so hardworking but somehow I wasn't influence by them. My common tests just over, honestly,most of the module I did not really study much just hoping a pass will do. I am not putting in my best effort for sure. Projects projects! After tests are all projects.

What did I did today, I slept almost the whole day ! I didn't expect myself to sleep so much but I did. It seems that I am getting no where now.

Yesterday was my brother 21st birthday, my house is packed with people during the evening and night. I went for alumni band that night for only 1 hr. Even my trombone playing is getting no where, making me so irritated. My piano pieces for grade 5 is so difficult, I am lacking of practice and next week I don even have time for practicing. AND KARLYN freaking sleep the whole day today! only practice 1 hr on trombone!!!

argh!!!

YOU ARE STRESSING TOO MUCH ON MUSIC!

Even the cabby uncle knows better than me! what the shit am I doing now!

FK! FK! FK!

I shall stop scolding myself a bit getting crazy already somehow out of hand. Practice practice and more practice. Scared, vibrating lips, lousy slide techniques, lousy tongue, lousy lip slurs, lousy puffing low notes, lousy watever!

Piano also, lack of practice 1 exam piece also haven completed yet! sian!

ok go do my project alr

Anyway, I look so stupid saying this. Whatever it is.

Tmr will be the day I will crack my brains, plus I need to do my tutorial. :(

Anyway studying of chords and triads was very challenging. But I am loving it! hahas..

Monday school and band as usual but was kind of boring for me maybe I am not in the mood to practice thats why. Too much already cause I have been practicing the whole of monday morning, recording my sound, listening to it ,correcting my mistakes etc. One thing about school is that I have not been listening to any tutorial or lecture, my body is there but my mind and soul was somehow not there.

Tuesday, went to see brass camber concert in YST . We nearly got lost in NUS, but we went there on time. Indeed it was an eye opener cause there was a very unique combination of music (harps, piano and brass choir) cool! for the first time I am see it. Anyway I wish something could get me to be motivated, to train my air and tonguing. My biggest weakness.

Wednesday, I thought I could not complete keying in the sinfonique forms, but I did it with a little help from vivien she come to my house to slacked. After which I went tpy to pass my friend something and went to have a drink in simon cause he is slacking for his band practice later. What I can talk to him is all band stuff! So blah blah blah ! until I damn lazy to head for band practice since it is sectional, but once I touch the trombone yesterday I suddenly did some intensive practicing for nothing. Maybe is because of the girl trombonist I saw in YST!

:)

I think I took 2 hrs to do that seriously making my eyes sore!

I am not looking forward to today school, somehow it does not push me to be motivated or what-so-ever. However, I met Eleanor today! she is really a sweet girl, she help me put cream on my rope burn wound. She really make my day! My wound had dry up but I still feel the pain. Argh!

Anyway I am thinking way too much today, during school, during band, during my journey home. I also don know what I am thinking honestly. My mind seems to be flooded suddenly.

I wanted to type more but I am tired I shall sleep!

I want to go to the masterclass tmr! :(